[ jackie reads the first part of her response over and over, often enough to lose count, as she weighs the words in her mind. the truth is, she can understand it. they’d been desperate and hungry even before winter started. she doesn’t know everything, but one thing she does know is it’s only gotten worse. beyond shauna, beyond more people dying. beyond even people finding them. ]
I don’t hate you. If it kept you alive, I don’t I didn’t want anyone to starve.
[ it’s kind of startling to realize that she means that. she’d only gotten a glimpse of what had lead them to that, but it had been enough to understand, even if she’s not sure she’ll ever get it, not really. they’d lived through it. she hadn’t.
she wants to add something else, but then the second part of natalie’s message comes through. ]
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I don’t hate you. If it kept you alive, I don’t
I didn’t want anyone to starve.
[ it’s kind of startling to realize that she means that. she’d only gotten a glimpse of what had lead them to that, but it had been enough to understand, even if she’s not sure she’ll ever get it, not really. they’d lived through it. she hadn’t.
she wants to add something else, but then the second part of natalie’s message comes through. ]
I wasn’t?