What, saving people from a burning building Please I'm taking up saving kittens out of trees next
[ Weird way to say "I went back in there a couple times because I have a loyalty to contribute towards the greater good", but whatever. Most importantly, ]
I am not the journal you keep under your pillow, Nat I take a little more convincing than that
( thinks about it, just a little while longer. nat still has the impossible teenage fear of looking stupid in front of another person — but she can also feel herself bleeding out, proverbially speaking, dissociated from her body. why, she couldn't say. natalie scatorccio being a gigantic fuck up was practically woven into her dna. )
[ Three dots. Appearing, vanishing, reappearing again. That happens for a while. Probably spends a little too long staring out at the lake, away from his tent, blinking into his tiny fucking screen. Jesus, she's a fucking sniper. ]
There is no man alive on God's green earth who is happy with his circumstances all the time Except maybe my old CO And Patrick Bateman (You'd understand that reference if you weren't from 1990)
Living's the same here or there. You get what you're given. You make every second count.
Don't think this is the kind of conversation people who are "fine" have, FYI
worried i made a mistake. trying to work through it. it's weird to talk to you about that kinda stuff, you know. you make it seem like you've never done anything wrong.
The way I see it, you do something wrong, you learn from it. You don't do it again We are all under the human obligation to demonstrate that we are not the worst calls made at our worst times.
[ Easier said than done, the Jake Seresin approved method of passing every psych eval he's ever had. You get decked. You get up. You move on. ]
( she thinks about it. it's not like nat likes screwing up — it just feels predestined sometimes, some genetic gift of being the daughter of two screw ups, already written on the inside of her bones. she tries her best. in the end, she thinks jake would appreciate that, even if he hated her for the rest. )
if it would help. i would. i'd do it a hundred times
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bro you are so annoying
( hold and save <3 )
if i ever find a gecko with an eight pack i'll get back to you
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PS flattered that you think of me in such clear detail
[ Now that his ego has been sufficiently stroked: ]
Everything good?
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more importantly —)
yep. fine.
you?
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Please
I'm taking up saving kittens out of trees next
[ Weird way to say "I went back in there a couple times because I have a loyalty to contribute towards the greater good", but whatever. Most importantly, ]
I am not the journal you keep under your pillow, Nat
I take a little more convincing than that
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the girls will swoon
( a little wait. not exactly a lull in conversation, but a pause — not for emphasis, but for searching. she comes up empty. )
it'll sound dumb saying it to you
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Try me.
[ Not exactly a guaranteed No, it won't. But if there's a throttle to push, he will. ]
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are you happy? here.
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There is no man alive on God's green earth who is happy with his circumstances all the time
Except maybe my old CO
And Patrick Bateman
(You'd understand that reference if you weren't from 1990)
Living's the same here or there. You get what you're given. You make every second count.
Don't think this is the kind of conversation people who are "fine" have, FYI
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i am fine
i'm just
worried i made a mistake. trying to work through it.
it's weird to talk to you about that kinda stuff, you know. you make it seem like you've never done anything wrong.
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The way I see it, you do something wrong, you learn from it. You don't do it again
We are all under the human obligation to demonstrate that we are not the worst calls made at our worst times.
[ Easier said than done, the Jake Seresin approved method of passing every psych eval he's ever had. You get decked. You get up. You move on. ]
You think you'll do it again?
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if it would help. i would.
i'd do it a hundred times