[ The great thing about the vodka is that it makes her stop feeling as sad about Mari. She's not any happier but the grief and guilt are temporarily dulled to the point where they stop either stop hurting or at least get kind of quiet for a while.
Instead Melissa gets to watch as Nat makes the joint, her long fingers pinching the paper and rolling it tight. Even with shaking hands, the motions are practiced and delicate, and it's riveting in the way watching someone do something they've done a thousand times before is always riveting, and Mel doesn't need to feel bad about the way she's looking. She does feel guilty about making Natalie upset, but there's nothing she can do about that part of it without going back in time.
Then the pink tip of Nat's tongue snakes out, licking the paper. Mel stares for a couple seconds longer, and then she blinks herself out of it and goes digging for the lighter. She briefly imagines Mari rolling her eyes at the whole scene, pissed off. I'm fucking dead and you're already perving on other girls? You should be thinking about me. Yeah, probably, but Mel's only human. ]
I was high basically all of last month. [ She flicks the wheel a couple times with her thumb, making it spark, and then hands the lighter over. ] It was, like, the easiest month I think I've ever had in my life, and it wasn't actually my life. [ She tips her head back, looking up at the ceiling. ] I think that other version of me was kind of a sociopath? But I should definitely smoke a lot more weed.
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Instead Melissa gets to watch as Nat makes the joint, her long fingers pinching the paper and rolling it tight. Even with shaking hands, the motions are practiced and delicate, and it's riveting in the way watching someone do something they've done a thousand times before is always riveting, and Mel doesn't need to feel bad about the way she's looking. She does feel guilty about making Natalie upset, but there's nothing she can do about that part of it without going back in time.
Then the pink tip of Nat's tongue snakes out, licking the paper. Mel stares for a couple seconds longer, and then she blinks herself out of it and goes digging for the lighter. She briefly imagines Mari rolling her eyes at the whole scene, pissed off. I'm fucking dead and you're already perving on other girls? You should be thinking about me. Yeah, probably, but Mel's only human. ]
I was high basically all of last month. [ She flicks the wheel a couple times with her thumb, making it spark, and then hands the lighter over. ] It was, like, the easiest month I think I've ever had in my life, and it wasn't actually my life. [ She tips her head back, looking up at the ceiling. ] I think that other version of me was kind of a sociopath? But I should definitely smoke a lot more weed.
[ Nat's gonna share that joint, right? ]