( too much, maybe? there’s pressure there, she imagines — but he’s not her favorite because he’s perfect, or something. he’s her favorite because he’s sweet. and surprisingly — gentle. unlike anyone else she knows inside or out of the wilderness, that’s for sure. plus the competition isn’t too fierce for favorites when it comes to natalie anyway, and no one is exactly chomping at the bit to be besties, so.
there’s a weight off her chest. to be fair, she really thought it would be okay either way, except now she’s sure that it wouldn’t, and that trav made the right choice. she doesn’t have to do it alone — and that’s cool, really cool, the thought of travis being there with her. that he wants to be. )
ok cool i still have to track a test down but ill let you know when i do
[wow. saying wow silently to himself. typing wow and deleting it because it sounds dumb and reads worse. nat is being so open with him and everything he can think of saying in response sounds stupid, never quite enough.]
I feel the same about you.
[does that sound stupid too? will she take it the wrong way? god he hopes not.]
Yeah I got you. Do you want me to help you look for one too?
( well. he seemed to have fun in the woods with lottie. nat had no idea she was missed. )
i was telling shauna i want to explore the boundary around the house too. apparently if you walk too far into the woods you get super sick or something wanna come with? i mean ... test first obviously. but after that. if you feel like it it'll probably suck. but at least it'll suck together
[she's right. a lot has changed since then, but his feelings for her haven't. her role made her seem more distant, even less approachable. then lottie kept convincing him that he was needed somewhere else and it seemed more important. there isn't that barrier between them here.]
I know. But I did like being out there with you.
[and it's not like nat was able to make as much time for him anyway. a brief pause,]
Pretty weird being around a bunch of people again.
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you are
( too much, maybe? there’s pressure there, she imagines — but he’s not her favorite because he’s perfect, or something. he’s her favorite because he’s sweet. and surprisingly — gentle. unlike anyone else she knows inside or out of the wilderness, that’s for sure. plus the competition isn’t too fierce for favorites when it comes to natalie anyway, and no one is exactly chomping at the bit to be besties, so.
there’s a weight off her chest. to be fair, she really thought it would be okay either way, except now she’s sure that it wouldn’t, and that trav made the right choice. she doesn’t have to do it alone — and that’s cool, really cool, the thought of travis being there with her. that he wants to be. )
ok cool
i still have to track a test down but ill let you know when i do
thanks trav
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I feel the same about you.
[does that sound stupid too? will she take it the wrong way? god he hopes not.]
Yeah I got you. Do you want me to help you look for one too?
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( there's a sudden, dramatic lightness to her. the whole world seems a lot brighter, when travis says things like that. )
sure if you wanna come with
it'll be like old times. just yknow ... indoors.
less cold at least
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I kinda miss that
being out in the woods with you
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( well. he seemed to have fun in the woods with lottie. nat had no idea she was missed. )
i was telling shauna i want to explore the boundary around the house too. apparently if you walk too far into the woods you get super sick or something
wanna come with? i mean ... test first obviously. but after that. if you feel like it
it'll probably suck. but at least it'll suck together
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I cant let you go off doing that alone. We need to stick together. Especially if something can happen to you.
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but i'm glad it hasn't
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I know. But I did like being out there with you.
[and it's not like nat was able to make as much time for him anyway. a brief pause,]
Pretty weird being around a bunch of people again.
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fucking gen
( training her to hunt so nat didn't have to. sucks because — nat liked hunting. she liked doing it with travis. )
i know right? it's a lot. sorta ... loud i guess?
i'd rather just be with you
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lol yeah. Loud is one way to put it.
[she's throwing him for a loop with all these compliments.]
You know we can hang out whenever we want right?